J.G. upped the pay and asked me to join them, but i still declined, the working hours there are so shitted. sigh, so i am now jobless. and i need cash to get by. i think i shall help ken sell his stuff. can get cash, and on top of that, i shall get one of those roadshow thingy jobs, provided i can find one.. lol
sigh.. 20 days till the return of ben. still no clue how i feel abt that. i mean, yehh, i cant wait, but still it seems that i can, i mean, with his coming, means its closer to the end of the year, and that i have less time to work, and earn money to get by, and perhaps survive for the next year. i'll have less time to lose weight to keep ben happy, and myself happy as well. less time to party and have fun, to go out and just hang with friends.. to chill and enjoy the year that i am 17(16 to exact). just so li'l time. and ben's return just seems to be marking the end of it all.
anyway. i dunno why im so stressed nowadays, and i always seem to be flaring up at kenken.. im sorry ok? i dont mean to flare up that often, i dont know why im just like that.. its the stress ok? of changing school, being cash tight, having to hear abt my parents and the money problems, and how they have to double up they're work to survive this crisis. stress stress stress..
i hate being so stressed and confused, and then realising that no one understands. (cliche i know, but just bear with me.. cos it IS true that no one understands). ah well. one day, i will find my soulamate, the one who understands me completely, and can blend into my soul, and me into his harmoniously... lol.. how corny can that sound.. ah well.. anyway.. soulmate, oh, soulmate, whoever art thou, pls come and find me, i am waiting for thee..
hai~